The Fall to Winter

It's hard being alone. I knew to expect this, but I didn't realize how hard I'd find it. Everyone has their own life and history and family and I had no idea how hard it would be for all of mine to be 5 hours behind and far, far away. I was excited about this, so excited, but the year-long applications and financial wars fizzled all the excitement out of me. And I suppose that when I applied, I'd momentarily forgotten that I'm a rather timid person, and I couldn't foresee that I would be frightened of the wild night-life that is half of the young European's life. And I couldn't foresee that my heart would suffer so much.